Happy New Year, friends! Before I begin, I want to give you permission. If you made resolutions, I give you permission to be excited for them. I give you permission to exert your energy on them. I give you permission to be proud when you see them through or disappointed when you don't. I also give you permission to not make any resolutions at all. I give you permission to "start" your "resolutions" in the middle of March if you'd like. Whatever you choose, I don't give you permission to shame what other people chose to do and not to do. We're all fighting the same fight.
On that note, I got inspired on New Year's Eve. We had this desk right in front of our front door. The desk was a spot of contention in my marriage. I'd clean the desk. I'd organize the bills, coupons, junk mail, and trinkets that would get piled on the desk, I'd feel good for about it for a few days then, inevitably, the junk would end up piled on it again within a week. I'd complain about it, ignore it, get anxious about it, clean it, and repeat the cycle. Guess what I did on New Year's Eve? I got rid of the desk. Yep, you read that right. I organized what was on top. I threw away expired coupons. I found new places for the things we needed and disposed of the things we didn't. I took the printer, the poor printer, that hadn't been used in years down to the basement, and my 2 year old helped me take the legs off the table. I took it out to the trash, and I haven't looked back. The table is gone, and I feel like a whole new woman. (However, to be transparent, I do still have a tiny corner shelf to hold the absolute necessities)
That table was a physical manifestation of my anxiety. It was home to the bills I was avoiding. It was home to the decisions I couldn't make. It was home to the junk that I let pile up in my life and take up space that should be allotted for what's actually important. Now that the table is gone, I have to make daily decisions that will make life easier in the long run. Will we really use that coupon to Lowe's? Nope, throw it away now. Don't let it stack up with the other useless coupons until the space is so crowded that I can't find what I really need. That medical bill that is about to be sent to collections? I can't throw it on the desk now. I have to look at my budget, see what is a reasonable payment, and take action.
I think we all have "desks" in our lives. Maybe, at your home, it's your drawer. Maybe, it's your purse. Maybe, it's a small corner in your mind. You don't have to organize your "desks" because it's a new year. You need to organize your desks because your mind deserves some peace. Find an area of your life that's cluttered - an area that's home to your junk. Clean it out. Purge the things you don't need, so there's space for what matters. Make immediate decisions that will enable you to find peace later.
Keep fighting the good fight!